Alcohol

I’ve been having problems either my drinking lately, not in the way of im drinking too often but in the way of I turn into a psycho emotional bitch (nowhere near myself, I feel like a completely different person) when im drunk. Every time i feel like i will be fine and not drink too much or turn into a bitch, I do. I’m mean to my friends, and my boyfriend and of course the next morning I feel like shit from anxiety and the toll it takes.

It’s not even that I crave being drunk or drinking, but when it’s a social outing you want to have fun right? How do I get rid of that FOMO, or is there anyway I can deal with my alcohol/behaviour problems?

Edit ; I don’t have to drink to have fun or hangout with people and this type of behaviour has never happened in my life before a month ago. No I am not drinking excessive, im talking about being young and going to a party! And yes I know I don’t need to drink, like I said before I don’t need it but in small towns where parties are what bring people together that is just how it goes(: I have talked to me therapist about this all, I’m just seeking advice if anyone has experienced anything like this as well