Here we go again… PCOS - Rainbow baby. Will it stick?

Here I am again. It’s hard to feel happy. Having already had 3 miscarriages I almost completely gave up caring or trying. It’s so hard to not be worried or have negative thoughts at this point. The clear blue and the first 2 pregmate tests are from yesterday. The last pregmate and the 2 digital are from today. What worries me is that none of the tests are dark at all and the last pregmate test is not any darker than the ones I took yesterday. If my calculations are correct I’m 3 weeks and 6 days so it’s VERY early but again base on my track record hard to stay positive. I need all the baby dust I can get if anyone can spare some. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼