That took a turn I wasn’t expecting

I don’t know how I feel…. So I wrote a post on the 23rd December about a Condon coming off inside me. And asked for advice. Well yesterday I took a test as my period hadn’t come and it’s positive. I have two beautiful kids and I’m feel so incredibly lucky to have them but I’m not really sure how I feel about having another baby. My daughter is 3 and my son is 1 and they are becoming more independent and easier isn’t the right word but that’s sort of how I feel. These ages have there challenges but I was looking forward to this new stage now that my one year old is walking and starting to communicate and my 3 year old is starting preschool. Things felt like they were falling into place. I love being a mum and I love my kids unconditionally but I really don’t know if I could handle a third. I’m also worried about my 3 year olds reaction she has been adamant she didn’t want another sibling. She really struggled with having a baby brother in the beginning. She hates change. Having a third would put a bit of pressure on us not only financially but our house is no where near big enough to house another baby. We have no storage and it feels cramped as it is. The car we would have to put my daughter in the boot seat as three seats won’t fit together. I was nervous will all my pregnancies when I got the positive test but I was excited. This time I’m generally not excited I am just generally worried I don’t think I can do this. I had a pretty average pregnancy last time I’m so worried about how this one will be and how everyone is going to cope. I just needed to write this I have so many thoughts doubts anxiety and stress. I know this is a blessing and I feel guilty for feeling this way but I’m generally worried