Delivered at 21w6d

After 3 years of trying. Im sad to say at 19w i had fresh blood. Rushed to hospital they found i have insufficient cervix and dilated 1cm already. Kept me in hospital bed rest and 4 days later found i was 3cm dilated and cerclage was NOT possible. Advised to wait for babies spontaneous arrival and be prepared for loss. At 21w and 6d i had a baby girl perfect for her gestational age but no dr or technology could help her breath and survive MY OWN BODY DIDN'THOLD HER IN. My baby took her first and last breath in my hands. And my husband took her to rest. A part of me is gone with her i have good and bad days but persevering with my husbands hands in mine. She is so perfect her little ears and nose and toes and fingers and nails her face shape like mine. Her nose and lips like her daddy and tall like her dad.