Sick of husband's depression

There I said it!! I cant take it anymore. His depression drives him to drink and become angry and basically completely unavailable. I have a hole in the wall to prove it. He basically wanted to divorce me when i got pregnant because he was "scared" even though this was very much planned. I couldnt count down to when the baby will arrive bc it made him nervous. For the first month postpartum he let me do everything by myself bc he was "depressed". Our baby was colicky and i did everything including all the night shifts alone bc i didnt want to stress him. After we.had the baby he went.through a very difficult time.with his drinkinfg and aggressive behaviors towards me. Now 2 years later he cyclically goes through things. Just yesterday he was angry andkept yelling telling our toddler to shutup and telling me he wish he could give him back because our baby hasnt been sleeping well lately. When he has his angry fits hes scary. He left the house and came back later yesterdayafter throwing things. I am soooo sick and tired of his depression as it seems to be his excuse for everything. I know its in sickness and health but man this is so hard.