1 day late

I’m 1 day late. My mind is going everywhere and I wish I had a hpt now. But.. I took 2, 2 days ago and both were negative. I intentionally did not test on Valentine’s Day because I didn’t want that being the focus yesterday. AF has not shown up though.. which is what I keep thinking. I’m getting excited but trying to stay in control of my emotions… I experienced a miscarriage in April of 2023 and have been in purgatory ever since.. do we try again…I wanted my December baby… No I don’t want to force it so I’m not taking any meds..but I’m getting older…I want another baby..life is good as it is..should we? Do I really? I love my boys so much already. Am I bored? Do I need a dog? No I don’t want to go back on birth control. No I don’t want the tummy tuck I’ve promised myself bc I want another baby.. what if… this is actually it…