We Listen and We Don’t Judge…Hopefully

So, firstly, I just want to say I know this is probably a “the grass is greener” situation and I just want to air my feelings because I have no-one in my life I can discuss this with.

I’ve been with my boyfriend since I was 22 - I’m now 27. He is 25. I love him so much and we have a generally pretty great relationship. We can have our moments but we always discuss and get over them as they’re normally silly things. However, our sex life is…lacking.

I’m always the one trying to get his attention, initiate, and I’m 90% of the time turned down and then the other 10% I’m delayed for another day (oh, Thursday? Tomorrow? Etc). I feel like I’ve missed out on the sexual side of life? I want that intimacy and not feel constantly rejected or feel insecure. I hear about other people’s experiences and I’m like “Jesus I want that”. I try and explain what I like in a light hearted way and my “kinks” and encourage conversation (when appropriate). I try and get him to tell me what he wants, I’ve told him multiple times I’m not happy in that area.

I just feel like I’m missing out? Also, I’m constantly questioning what’s wrong with me? I mean, the men I know, and even don’t know, can’t get enough of their partners 😔

(FYI this is not a “I want to cheat” situation because I would NEVER). Maybe just looking to rant 😂