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Well, I did it everyone! I got out of a DV relationship and got a safe place for me. My body is still so anxious I can barely sit still. My heart keeps pounding constantly. I can’t sleep, I’m always looking over my shoulder. I know I’m safe, it’s like I’m waiting for my body to catch up.

The worst part of all this is that I’m still having to grieve this man and that relationship. I have to grieve someone who held me down and screamed in my face, someone who trapped me in rooms, someone who tried to run me off the road with their vehicle, someone who punched a wall (simply because I moved when I saw the swing), and someone who always always ALWAYS told me they were the only person that loved me and then continued to alienate me from everyone who loved me. I don’t want to grieve but I know it’s part of the process.

UPDATE- Thursday I was having anxiety attacks and panic attacks. I called Avenues (our women’s coalition for victims of DV.) They got me into counseling and I had to go to the er to get anxiety meds. Last night I got my first full night of sleep. Thank you ladies for uplifting me in this difficult time. I don’t know you, but I love you all.