Feeling down

Me and my partner have been trying for 4 years and no luck. Finally this week Sunday I was spotting all the way up until today. Period was supposed to start on the 9th which made Sunday dpo 9 ( confirmed first sighting of spotting). I went to the store and bought a test which I peed all over it like a dummy. Because o couldn’t stop peeing lol, so the test was invalid. I thought that that was a sign to just wait so I didn’t take the second one. I thought everything was on track but today, while I was in the shower I begin to feel period cramps not the small lil cramps I’ve been feeling all week. These cramps I was feeling had already had lemme know that my period was finna come then boom when I wipe red blood on tissue followed but stabbing pain. I had to take an ibuprofen something I wasn’t taking all week because the tiny cramps didn’t hurt at all. Shortly 30 minutes later the cramps died down idk if it was from the ibuprofen or what but usually it doesn’t work that fast. Idk what to do I’ve tried everything to geritol, prenatal vitamins, mucous decongestants( to make her you know what). I’m feeling lost and most importantly hurt. I always love on everyone else’s baby like their mine, I just want one of my own 💔