Advice needed

So back in 2020 I went into my hospital at 39 weeks to be induced, after about a day and a half of Pitocin I only dilated 1cm and 50% effaced. The doctors then moved onto Cervidil. 12 hours after that my water broke but I still hadn’t dilated anymore. 24 more hours go by and my baby goes into distress and have to have an emergency c-section. Baby was 10lbs 6oz

Fast forward to 2022 I find out I’m pregnant again. I get a new ob at this point due to complications with the last hospital after giving birth. My new doctor is asking if I want a VBAC. I tell her no because I’m under the impression that I can’t have babies naturally. And I go ahead and tell her I want a repeat c-section. 38 weeks comes along and she’s double checking on my decision because she knows I want to have a baby naturally as I’ve mentioned it a couple of times. I tell her that I’m worried about the things I’ve read online and she told me that I’m in good hands. I let my fears take over and opted for a repeat c-section anyways. Baby was 8lbs 7oz

Fast forward to now I’m 11 weeks pregnant. My doctor is asking if I want a VBAC. And I tell her my fears and ask for advice. She tells me she doesn’t want to sway me either way but that she thinks the reason why my body wouldn’t progress with my first is because how big my first was. I’ve read such bad things on google and I’m honestly scared to have a VBAC but I want to have a VBAC so bad because it means less recovery time. And it’s not a major surgery. Any ladies have an experience with what I have experienced and or have had a VBAC?