I feel like I’m beginning to hate my child

I’m typing this as a way to release my inner thoughts I suppose. My 4 year old son has been a difficult child. From birth he was fine, but I’d say when he hit about 1.5 years old, he started to developed an immense fear of water/being bathed. Since then, life has just been so difficult. We attend occupational therapy to help him overcome his fear of water on his head. He also attends psychology appointments (play based of course) to help him regulate his emotions as he has been a very emotional child since about 2 years old. He used to have the worst tantrums and could cry and scream for about an hour. My son has really made my life hard. I love him so much, I try to help him to the best of my ability, but the second he wakes up he finds something to nah about. He’s developed new sensory issues such as issues with all of his socks, the sleeves on every single shirt, his undies, just everything. He wakes up whining and we spend up to an hour trying on different socks/pants/shirts. I scream at him. I get so so mad. I don’t know why he has to make life so difficult. I assure him the annoying feeling will go away once he starts playing. He screams when I ask him to repeat himself. He tries to punch me sometimes when he doesn’t get his way. He’s an absolute angel at daycare. But at home I really really hate having him around. He’s just made life really stressful to be honest. I don’t know what to do. I give him so much love and reassurance and in the end he just makes every little thing so hard.