Nervous

So I’m almost 7 weeks pregnant our little surprise pregnancy and I’m so nervous. Yea sure financial situation makes me nervous but I’m more nervous about losing this baby. We weren’t trying to get pregnant he was scheduled for a vasectomy but it happened. This is my last opportunity to try to have a baby girl and I just keep having the thought run in my mind that something is going to happen. I had a miscarriage back in 2017 and then got pregnant with my son in 2018. My miscarriage is what brings my nerves up with this one because I really don’t want to lose this opportunity try to get a baby girl before I can’t. I’m so excited about this pregnancy, I’m planning on doing a sneak peak test on Friday to find out the gender because I want to prepare for what we are having but also I haven’t had any sort of blood work done. I have an over the phone appt on the 1st and then an in person appt on the 15th I’ll be almost 11 weeks by the time I hit the 15th. I feel like that’s to long with out getting any sorts of ultrasounds or even just hearing the heart beat which scares me even more. I don’t even know when I should be getting blood work done and getting any sorts ultrasound. I don’t know what I’ll do if I lose this baby and i don’t know how to keep my nerves relaxed.