I wanna be pregnant!!!! VENT

I'm going crazy! I so so so sick of seeing negative hpt!! It's only cycle two for us but we had baby #1 on first cycle! We are ttc baby #2 and I'm 9dpo and getting nothing but BFN! But honestly I don't feel like this is our month :((( I just don't have that feeling!  Just so worried it's gonna take us years!! I thought because of our first went so quick number two would also! :(( thanks for listening. Vent over.