Help me please so confused ! I want a baby

Right so here goes ... about 6 months ago my partner of many years was on cannabis and i felt i wasnt important 2 him anyway after a while of this tolerance 2 it everthin kicked off we both wanted a child but i felt insignificant 2 him bvuz of tht anyway it all came 2 a blow and he fineshed me and i drunk and depressed cheated well he fineshed me so i went with the attention as i hadnt had any 4 a while anyway since he has quit weed an is focusin on a healthy lifestyle we have got bk 2gether and we have a nearly 3 year old 2gether he call me a whore on an almost daily basis amd says he doesnt want another but we r happy and i feel time is right 2 start trying he says he doesnt want to ... i have agreed untill we both agree 2 put it on hold but heres the thing i had a opertunity to have the implant put in which i was happy 2 do if he wanted b8t he refused 2 take me he said hed rather carry on unprotected which confuses me further i struggle 2 concieve due to thyroid problems amd suffer from stress eadilu which causes my periods 2 b very off but i jusy cant read him ... what does he want really ? 2 me him refusing to take me for implant makes me feel asif he does want what i do but sayin the oposite ... someone mus of been through this 2 give me advice plz