Sorry about the long rant.

Shallon • Hello. I like good vibes and indie music.
So my boyfriend came to visit me here in Hawaii for about three months. It was originally going to be him stay out here for good and then when I get out of the military we both fly to Colorado but we didn't think it all the way through financially. So I had to send him back to Florida. That was last Tuesday. Since then my depression has hardcore kicked in the past couple days, like I haven't even left my room. Writing this makes me want to cry. Now, mind you I am not good at LDR at all and this as been the most successful relationship I've been in ever, going on 7 months. I'm the happiest I've ever been with him and he treats me like a goddess. He's amazing and I love him so much, we see each other in our futures. But because I'm normally bad at at LDR there's a mean voice in my head that keeps telling me to break up but I don't want to, nor will I ever. But I can't make it stop and it's so loud sometimes. 
​Before anyone asks, I'm not schizophrenic. 
​I don't know, anyway, thanks for reading my long rant.