Last Time Around

I'm 27 ttc baby#2. I'm currently 10dpo and so far no sign of af. This is cycle #2 for me. I know many women have been ttc for months and years now, but I don't have the strength to continuously get BFN every month. I tested this morning and got a BFN. My anxiety level is higher than my hcg at this point and it's killing me softly. Af is expected on Sunday if it don't come I'm not longer tracking and charting. The disappointment is too much to bare