Bad day 😔

Well I am having a bad day... Found out 2 cousins of mine are pregnant... I really don't know how I should feel, I know it will happen for me but when, I can't even get the guy I am with to make up his mind if we are an item or not... I think the only reason why I am feeling the way I am is because I am the same age as one of them (31) and I know as I get older it will be harder for me to get pregnant and I honestly I don't know if I can get pregnant never been close to it so I dont know if there will be problems for me.... I just want to be with someone who makes me happy and have lots of babies :''''(..... It's just a bad day not a bad life, right?