My thoughts and hopes

I'm hoping this month I don't get my period. If I do Im going to feel down we've been trying for two almost three months already amd still nothing. Why was it so much easier for me to conceive my son versus now??? I was told today by glow that women in their twenties are able to.conceive a lot faster and since Im 23 I'm at my peak of becoming pregnant. Idk just venting and kinda complaining at the sametime I'm hoping for a miracle this month. Also I don't believe that all women experience implantation bleeding I never experienced that when I conceived my son is that really the only way we can tell as women that the sperm met the egg and has been attached to the uterus???