Another miscarriage

I've been wondering why. I've been searching for answers... and that can tear you apart, you know? They have said "it's nothing that you did or didn't do. Sometimes it just happens." But, it's been very hard to believe. Especially now after a third time.

I had an HSG done before my second pregnancy which showed that my tubes were fully open, and I had no blockage. I also had a number of fertility blood tests, and that also showed that everything was good to go. So.. this means that there's gotta be another reason.

Tonight I feel like I've found the answer. Months after my second miscarriage, two doctors told me that my thyroid looked enlarged, and a little puffy. I had an ultrasound ordered on it. In April, I had blood tests on my thyroid to check my levels. At that time everything was normal. So, I felt like there probably wasn't anything wrong with it. I went through with the ultrasound, and sure enough a few days later I was told they found a "minor" nodule on the left side of my thyroid. When they told me that, I was a little concerned, and so I googled for a couple of hours. I read all about how most of the nodules are non-cancerous and will eventually go away on their own. I read all the problems a nodule can cause, such as fatigue(which I have MAJOR fatigue), weight gain or loss( depending on if you have an underactive thyroid or a hyperactive one), and also fertility problems. At this time I didn't really think anything of it, since I thought "hey, I've been able to get pregnant so I don't have fertility issues." The only thing my doctor recommended at the time was to have another ultrasound done in 6 months, I guess that's to check to see if it decreased or increased in size. 

When I told people that they found a nodule on my thyroid, many of them said "maybe that's what's causing you to not be able to give birth." I still didn't really think it could be because of that because I hadn't read that in my google search. But today, I decided, what the hell, let me see if that could be why I'm having miscarriages. 

So today I did some more research on Google. (sorry, but I love google). I read that both hypothyroidism and hyperthyroidism are at the greatest risk for miscarriage in early pregnancy. I'm not a doctor, but I suspect I have hypothyroidism being that I'm always extremely tired, and I've had weight gain... Like... For no reason. 

It turns out that up until about week 13 of pregnancy, a developing fetus needs the thyroid hormone, and therefor the mother has to share, until the fetus has developed its own thyroid. 

So, maybe, my body decided it couldn't give any of my little babies any thyroid hormones since I almost don't even have enough for myself. 

I decided to message my OB/Gyn about this curiosity, and now I wait for what she has to say.

It's unfortunate, but I am hoping that my thyroid is the problem so I can get treated for it and eventually have a successful pregnancy. If it isn't my thyroid, then I have absolutely no idea what it could be...

Thank you for listening.

Xoxo