Ranting about husbands that drink 😧

He went from a 12 pack a day, to cold turkey stopping drinking November 2014. I was soo proud of him, it was amazing! He brags about being sober all of the time but he has slipped. And he keeps slipping and I am not impressed anymore, I am getting pissed off.

He spent alot of time alone with my dad (who drinks a 24 pack a day or more), last spring and summer and I know he was drinking, I don't know if it was just one or two, but he lied and I still knew. Because my dad would offer him beer infront of me and make jokes about his soberity.

We got engaged in August and I told him one more beer and the wedding is off! I made myself very serious. He was good (I think), until October. He went to a friends while I was away from town for the day and got retarded drunk. When I came home feeling sick and there was no hiding the alcohol breath so I made him eat my left over chineese so he puked his brains out and went to bed.

I don't think he drank at our wedding(not infront of me). But have suspected he has taken a beer here or there since then. But he always turns them down infront of me an explains that he quit drinking November 2014. Last weekend while I was baby sitting he went fishing for the day with Roger(straight edge guy). That happens, but when I was talking to him in the afternoon I could tell he was drunk in his voice so I asked, he promised me he wasn't. He assured me he wasn't.

Then like alcoholics do, he called me from a different lake around the time I was done baby sitting (5?). But now he was with Jaydon(alcoholic), they were going to another lake in the next province! He would be home late, but he would bring dinner. I tried calling straight to voicemail. I finally called again at 8:45(trying not to nagg), they Just drilled there hole and were ready to fish, and they had some dude named Rudy now. I stayed up and waited for him. He came home after 12 am and didn't bring diner like promised. Drunk promises, you know they will never happen. He said he didn't drink and we went to bed.

He said he didn't drink and I was going to believe him only because I wanted too. I knew he drank but I wasn't worried about arguing. Then today Jaydon came over and vaugely mentioned "Bills drunk ass in my back seat, Rudys drunk ass in my front seat.". He also mentioned "you left something in my car you purchased at the liquor store".

And I am fucking livid. I want to punch him I am so mad. I have realized that I am great motivation for him not to drink, unless I am not there! I don't think he holds back at all when I am not around. He still says he quit drinking over a year ago. If I try to say that no, actually, you still drink. You are a casual drinker. He gets offended! An easy fix for him would be to quit drinking! He is stressing me out. My dad is an alcoholic and I have never even seen him try to quit, I really don't want to deal with this. All this stress (and pms) is making me want to give up and go buy him a six pack. I do not crave drinking but these last few days I have been alot. 😢😥