Feeling a bit

Deflated :/

This is cycle #4 of ttc #2. I know that others have been ttc a lot longer and that sucks so bad!

I just feel down this month as I've been ill so we've hardly dtd.

Also, my mum made a comment to me the other day about how she doesn't want any more granddchildren just yet :( that was kind of a punch in the teeth.

After suffering 3 mc, 1 before the birth of our daughter and 2 earlier this year it means a lot to us.

I am only 20 (21 in Feb) but I'm engaged to my finance (23) who I've been with for 5.5 years, he is the father of my 1 year old and we've been living together for nearly a year.. I'm not an immature person and I feel that my fiance and I are mature enough to decide if another baby is right for us. I'm just sad that my mum isn't onboard - and she doesn't know that we're ttc again either :(

I don't even know why I posted this.

Just needed to let it out I guess.