Need to vent, don't judge please kinda tmi

I'm posting anon cause I don't want to be judged.. I just have no one to talk to.. Okay so I'm engaged and just became a mommy 6 weeks ago. Here's the problem. I'm highly against porn and I have my reasons (cause of an ex). Anyways, two years ago I've found porn on my fiancées phone while I was trying to look something up. I was furious and told him how I felt and he promised not to watch it again, if he felt the need to masterbate he would ask me for pictures. At the time when he was watching it we were having sex like 2-6 times a day so I was pleasing him without a doubt. I still do till this day try to please him daily. When a couple weekends ago we had an argument and we were mad at each other. I was sleeping and he was in the living room paying Xbox. All of a sudden he goes to the bathroom to shower and locks the door which he NEVER does. I knock on the door cause I had to pee and he had put his phone in a ziplock bag and had it in the shower and told me cause he wanted to change songs. Well after arguing some more he finally admitted that he was gonna beat off but to my pictures and promised up and down that he wasn't gonna watch porn. I knew he was up to something and kept lying to me that he was looking at pictures of me. Last night we got to talking calmly for once and admitted that he was planning on watching porn knowing how against it I am and how betrayed I feel by it. I cried and felt so hurt. He promised he wouldn't ever watch it after I told him why I'm so against it. He said he thought I was just being crazy and had no reasons. Well I gave him my reasons and he said now he knows and will respect that. But he knew how I felt before about it, so I don't get why he would still go behind my back while I'm sleeping and try to watch it and lie to me. I'm so hurt and he promised me before he wouldn't and now I just don't know if I should even believe him. I feel like he still will anyways cause he obviously didn't care how I felt. When I asked to see his phone while he was in the shower he refused to give it to me and tried to delete stuff, which he always lets me see his phone when I ask and has pictures of me he could of used instead. I just don't want him getting turned on or getting off to other women but me. I feel like he's gonna do it again and he doesn't care how I feel. Ladies I know all men watch prom blah blah blah. Don't judge me for being against it. Everyone's different. So ladies if you feel the same as I do about porn please comment. I need some comfort, no negative comments. I just don't know if I can believe him that he won't break this promised too 😔