Crying..

About 2 months before him and I got together I was raped by one of my close friends, who I am not in contact with anymore... Whatsoever. My parents are aware of what happened, I go to counseling.. But for some reason for the first time ever I started thinking about the guy who raped me while having sex with my boyfriend, and I instantly broke down into tears and freaked out.. I don't want this to happen again but I've just been thinking about this guy so much lately in fear that he'll come after me and do it again.. I love my boyfriend so much and I don't want this to effect our relationship or sex life.. Any advice or kind words??😕😕