Feeling down :(

My boyfriend of six months and I broke up last week. We broke up once before about seven weeks ago but got back together. That first breakup was very hard on me because it was out of the blue and I wasn't ready to say goodbye. After we got back together, things were better but didn't feel quite right. Last week we decided to go our separate ways. This breakup had been a lot easier than the first one because it was mutual and I was prepared for it as much as I could be. I'm just feeling sad because it's hard to be alone again. He and I went through a lot together and he was my first real boyfriend. I know I need to stay positive and that one day I'll find the right man, but it's just so hard sometimes.