First time positive after miscarriage !

So I had a mc last year Nov. And had to wait three months before we tried again. And finally after a long wait I have got the green signal today! But I don't know why it hasn't excited me as much as it did the first time. Is it because I am probably scared after my miscarriage the first time round. I hope it goes well this time round. And to everyone else ttc I wish you all the best of luck and hope you all get the positive ! Baby dust for all 🌬✨💙💙💙🙏🏽👶🏻👶🏻👶🏻