hard time

hey ladies. im having a hard time. this is my 2nd pregnancy and its been full of complications. ive been going thru this alone as my high school sweetheart decided that another woman with 3 kids was more important. i just got news yesterday that my lupus is attacking my daughter and dropping her heartrate. i have an ultrasound in 2 weeks to check her growth then i will be scheduled for induction. i will be 30 weeks on saturday and im terrified. shes already very small and now we are looking at delivering her around 32 to 34 weeks. i know thats not bad but trying to explain to her dad whats going on is what stresses me out more. we have a 4 year old daughter together and with this baby he just doesnt seem to care that shes having a hard time. i dont know if i should tell him when im being induced or just go ahead and do it alone like i have been.