44 days

My cycles are 42 days and my period comes around that time sometimes a day or day and a half earlier. I'm on day 44 with no period. I don't feel excited I don't feel nervous I don't wanna test well 2% of me does. But I'm mentally exhausted from the anticipation and disappointment of each month. My cycles are almost double what most people are most people are on a 28day cycle so I ovulate less frequently then most since my period is regularly 42 days apart. My husband and I have been trying for 13 months. Is it harder for me to get pregnant bc of the length of my cycles ? We decided to test to see if we could have kids. The whole process has taken forever and was stressful finally I was okay with it I was nervous or anxious I just was ready to accept what ever the doctor says my results were so we were beginning testing this month. One of the tests needed to be done on the first day of my period I was okay with it and ready Thursday was the day my period is on time but of course when I finally accept it my period doesn't show I wasn't stressing or anything and now I am bc if I start this weekend I have to wait till my next cycle since radiology isn't opened on the weekend I'm so lost and don't know what to think .....just needed to vent and hear some words of encouragement or advice.