I'm sad today

And since I don't really share my infertility issues with anyone I thought it would help to let it out here because I keep holding back from fully crying but I need to let it out. Once I got married I was sad because I found a great man but my husband and I wouldn't be able to have kids because I had a tubal ligation prior 😦 but years later I was able to get a tubal reversal 😃 sadly though I kept having miscarriages 😭, back to heart broken. I eventually found out both my tubes were blocked and more tears😢😢. I was then advised IVF is an option so hope came back😊 and was excited again but after a few consultations I realized this dream is so far because insurance doesn't pay, we don't have all the money and trying to finance won't happen since I'm trying to rebuild my credit and my husband has no real credit history. I felt like it was sooo close to happening, I was so excited 💔

End venting