First time

Hi everyone my name is marissa n I'm eighteen years old, and 27 weeks pregnant with my first baby.. And I'm scared frustrated worried nervous excited just a mix of emotions.. The person I'm having this child with, my boyfriend/best friend passed away on the 18th of February and its so unreal to me n hurts me so much.. I'm trying to stay as strong as possible and not try to grieve at least until the baby comes but I just feel so stuck..I don't even have the word that describes how I feel... I hope I deliver a healthy baby, my pregnancy hasn't been complicated I'd say but it has been stressful..just looking for some advice.. I hope everything is fine with my baby and I don't really feel stressed in my body but in my mind I do so much... I don't exactly even know what I want to be told..maybe words of wisdom or advice..I don't know but congrats to everyone God bless you all and your bundles of joy may God be with you and you all have my blessings