I'm not looking for people to feel sorry for me, I just need to vent/rant. At 26 I'm still fat, still have no real future ahead of me, still no baby, no close friends, no family near by, my SO basically ignores me. I have no where to turn. I want to do things and when i do I get bored and just want to just be home in my own world. I'm bored but yet every thing bores me. I feel so inhuman. Like I'm a whole different species or something. I believe things people will NEVER agree with me on I just know it. I know everyone says "you're not alone" but I seriously must be. It's like I'm fighting in my brain to be as normal as possible but the older I get the difficult it is to fake things. Sometimes I just want to throw in the towel on life.