Heartbroken

I really thought I was pregnant this time. Boobs started getting sore today, the day my period is suppose to start. I'm super nauseous I can't even eat anything!!. Decided to take a test. And it's neg. It looked like there was a faint pos. After 5 min. But I'm driving myself crazy. I went to do a cervix check and now I'm spotting. Af is on her way. I am so depressed. I need God so much right now. My husband and I really got out hopes up. I really thought this was it. The end of our long ttc journey. I am so upset. I want to cry but I cant. I think I'm done. I can't do this anymore. Done with glow, everything. I need to live my life. This has been making me so depressed. Why is this so hard!!!.