Needy

Has anyone else been just moody and needy? I love my SO and he has been awesome but we have this contention with one area. He goes to a game night once a week to hang with his friends i am NOT interested in D&D i tried playing it and sitting for 5hrs as someone who calls themselves God controls rules i just could not and don't understand and can change according to what "game god" says drove me nuts. So i said hey go for it go once a week have a night... ...this i was cool with thursday once a week.

But we are in the final trimester i just finished up testing to see if i had cervical cancer thankfully all test negative still abnormalities but they'll just have to be monitored, I'm already having preterm contractions and due to an accident i have a pinched nerve in my back so walking has become a problem.

I just honestly need my husband with ME when he is off but here lately its been work, come home, play video games and when we try to spend even an hour together he fucking falls asleep. Yet he can go play d&d for 5-6hrs and have no problem staying awake.

He got mad the other day because i wanted to get one of the small cakes from the grocery for $9. It was a craving and usually i don't cave to them. But he can spend $15 on dice and books for d&d or $30 on steam. Its come to the point where i go without or just sale something online to get something i want.

Now the nights he goes over to play d&d are changing last minute i planned to cook out Friday well the game got pushed back to friday. So the next week i planned for us to go to the movies thursday (game was on wed) the game got changed to thursday and on friday we go to the movie(one my husband picked) and he fell asleep. And for the 3rd time now he was suppose to have the game wed so i planned something for thur then it got pushed back to thur so i canceled plans for thur so made new plans for fri....now it's pushed back to fucking friday! My husband goes ill just get up and spend time with y'all on sat morn.....no he won't he sleeps in on his days off(been there done that the shirt sucks) and has already invited a buddy over saturday to help him with his computer. So his idea of spending time together will be me in thr living room them in the comp room until lunch when I'll fix it and then sit and listen to them talk computers.

I think the final straw was when he told me today "hey we are just going to keep the schedule open so it'll just be some night wed to sat that way we know everyone is off to be there" UH NO im sick of making and changing plans and this will mean i can't plan shit.

So i decided I'm done whether he is there or not I'm not going to change plans tonight i still have my parents coming over for a cookout along with one of his friends. When he found out he got pissed.... and told me how he had given up and changed so much to be a step dad and good provider and he shouldn't have to give up his game night. I told him i didn't ASK him to but I'm not going to keep changing MY plans and always accommodating him. I'll be honest i was hurt and i still am i mean wtf really? I guess i gave up nothing or maybe i thought giving up the childish shit was worth it.