The big secret

I haven't told my bf bc he's been putting up with my moody bs lately I started clomid but that's not the secret. He thinks I stopped smoking I mean I was a pack a day or more smoker and he has even made the effort to cut down alot and not smoke in front of me. But while he's at work I do smoke 1 a day. I know I am putting in jeopardy my fertility and 5 his is important to us but it's so had to go from 20+ cigarettes a day especially when I wake up, finish cleaning , eating, or bored having a "smoke break" . I mean I'm pretty proud of myself bc I don't smoke a full cigarette at once ine can last me a whole day which is amazing at this point but I really need to quit completely especially while we are ttc :/ ppl have told me about the patch or chewing gum but I don't dare the patch bc I'm ttc. And chewing gum irritates me after a while lol. Any advice? 😧😧 going a little nuts here ladies.