Dealing with a loss

I hope this is a loud. I apoligize if not. My fiance and I lost our baby at 4 mths along on Monday the 9th. I woke up at 3am in labor and as positive as my loving fiance tried to keep me while his heart broke at the same time we spent Monday holding our sweet baby saying our goodbyes. Every night I have slept with the blanket we were sent home with because it helps me sleep. But the sane nightmare I have every night is killing me ever more inside. We were able to bring home our sweet baby this afternoon from the funeral home. Being very thankful our family is all together, not the way we hoped for bit still so thankful I don't know how to deal with this. I know in time it'll get easier. The pain will always be there, but is there anyone out there who might have some sort of advice? I'm reaching out for help. I'm not here to scare anyone in anyway or to bring bad news to such a haply moment in so many people's lives. I just need guidance in all this. Thank you in advance.