Masturbation vs Sex

There's a good chance I won't be having sex anytime soon. But I decided to masturbate and normally I avoid fingering myself because it hurts ,but I decided to give it another go I wanted to see if I could find the g-spot. I hated it. It hurt a bit and i couldn't find it. I always imagined what it would feel like having a males genitals in me, idk do you think from my reaction I'll hate it? This is why I stick to rubbing the clit. Honestly, I'm trying to stop masturbating all together.