Ok so I need to write this down. For my own sanity.

In march I found out I was expecting baby no4. Very excited. I've never had problems in pregnancy. Ever. Then at 5w 4d I started bleeding. I lost our baby just 2 days later. Confirmed at hospital with neg urine test and numerous tests at home too.

I didn't get a natural period after 4 weeks. Done a test and we were pregnant again. Told no one just myself and my husband knew. I went to the Dr and had bloods done. Confirmed pregnancy. Bloods repeated and my hcg dropped. I started bleeding. I lost this baby too. This time my hcg levels lingered at 137 for 3 weeks after the bleeding stopped. My Dr wasn't interested in my concerns. So I changed Dr and he scanned me the very next day.

My uterus and overies are fine... awesome I thought. Then we saw a small sac of fluid. He wasn't sure if it was a new pregnancy or not. Done bloods. They came back at 483.. I was around 4 weeks... had bloods repeated. I started bleeding heavily while I waited for results. They came back hcg 176. I passed numerous huge clots and large amounts of blood..

I didn't have any pain with and of my miscarriages. I'm afraid to try again. My Dr is putting through to a miscarriage clinic to have some tests done...

My emotional state is somewhat unpredictable.

I'm grateful I have 3 healthy children already. But that doesn't make miscarriage any easier.