I'm just wondering bc I've been contemplating talking to my Dr and getting on meds. I was on amitripteline for years prior to pregnancy bur my Dr has told me that it isn't safe for baby. But I know there are some medicines out there that will be ok. Idk if I can make it until the end without medication. Some days I'm ok but when I have my bad days, they are horrible. All I do is cry and sleep and I don't care about anything. I've gotten so lazy with the housework. My fiance understands and pitches in when he can. But he works long hours and I certainly don't expect him to pick up the slack. When I have my good days I obv clean and make everything neat again, but when I have the bad days there's no telling when I'll feel better, it could be a one day thing, a couple days and my longest stretch of a major depression episode has been 9 days. Where litterally I would just sleep, eat enough to not get nauseous and just cry and cry and cry. Sorry for the lengthy post. It's just hard for me to not be on my meds and I'm trying so hard to be strong but I'm not sure it's best I continue like this. And please, for those of you who don't have depression, please don't comment and tell me things like, " try finding a hobby, get out of the house, do things you like to do" I know all of that. And in my head on my good days I tell myself I'll do that. But when I get into those moods it doesn't matter. It's all out the window. Who knows what I'm going through? And who's on meds?