boy problems lol

Okay so this sounds very immature considering I'm 16 but I was in a relationship with this guy (we'll call him Steve) for around a year on and off and it seriously screwed me up. So the relationship to begin with wasn't a great idea I was moving out of state at the end of the year and we started going out over text after my great grandmothers wake... Not to mention all my friends disapproved but there was something about this guy Steve who I just couldn't get out of my head and slowly I fell in love with him blah blah blah we ended the toxic relationship and low key emotional abuse (also he pressured me into sexual things but let's not)finally after about six times and just stopped talking no closure just stopped and I think that's what really screwed me over cause I always had trouble telling him I loved him and it wasn't until we finally ended it I realized how much I loved him which really screwed me up and now it's almost a year later and I've tried going out with other guys and girls (reason 2 I wanted to break up to explore my sexual and romantic interests)and it hasn't worked well I no longer love him or feel obligation towards him and our relationship but I can't seem to get myself out there again and there's this really cute guy at school who is just making me question why it is I keep waiting and I keep telling myself it's for me time but I've had a year of me time and also I don't have time for the commitment of a relationship and I just started new antidepressants but every time I talk to this new guy he makes me fall in love with the idea of love again and idk what to do...{also he doesn't even want sex yet he just wants cuddles and chick flicks unlike my ex and it's really cute}