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Okay yal I really need some positive vibes

My dad died .

He had been on life support for 28 days . following a mild heart attack causing him yo traumatically hit his head .

He has five kids no spouse making the three kids he has over 18 his next to kin

So me and my two older sister had been making all these decision as far as medical procedures etc.

We decided to take him off life support Thursday.

He surprisingly stayed alive two more nights

Yesterday I decided to leave class early and go visit

I was there alone he looked so uncomfortably it killed me

I went to pee and came back and it happened

In front of me alone

He took one huge gulp for air and it was it

Over

I had no relationship with him it was on and off all the other kids did. So it just surprised me it seems like he waited on me to tell him I forgave him and that's all he needed to hear to be okay with leaving

I'm heart broken its always been a thought in my he a that he would fix the father daughter thing even if I was 60 and he was 90 it was a chance it could be fixed. Now it not a chance at all

Mind you I'm just 24 I'm full time nurse student I have two kids (7and3) a husband and I'm TTC

The stress level is beyond me

I can't stop crying .

AF is due Friday and I'm still getting BFN.

So another disappointing month .

All this and I can't even get pregnant

Don't know why I'm telling yal this I'm just so hurt disappointed

I want to be pregnant I want my dad

Sorry I'm not asking for pity or nothing

Just a vent

10mins after posting AF shows EARLY

Month after month my hopes get shredded out my body and flushed down