venting...and need help with funding

Venting, this is awful, his count was 6.5, mobility was 46%, and morphology was 3. The REs nurse said we will need IVF ICIS. I don't know how to pay for all of this, and with my age the success rate is 50% 😰 Plus I've lost weight but weigh like 290lbs 😰 I think Mother Nature, God, or whoever/what ever you believe in hates me. Suggestions with funding??? Thanks ladies for listening to my rant and making suggestions.