Confused Emotional

So I had my regular AF Oct  11th thru 15th then on Nov 1st I started spotting lite pink then went red but ONLY when I wiped. As of right now I'm still spotting some pink / red / brown through out the day it's not even enough to actually wear a pad. I don't know what to think. I just started taking Vitex to help me regulate it back it's worked in the past for me. I'm just an emotional wreck i want my BFP but keep on seeing bfn & to top it all off I just found out my sister-in-las is expecting I'm happy for her but I also want my BFP😢😢Anybody by any chance have advice on what I should do or have gone thru the same thing. I know i need to ask my obgyn. I'm just frustrated 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢