omg in panic mode

My boyfriend and I have been together since ewe were 15. We will both be 20 within the next few months.. 

I had a series of heart problems early spring of 2016. I had health insurance at the time. Well my cardiologist didn't speak English very well, but I was eventually cleared after doing SEVERAL tests, nights in the hospital, and several heart monitors. I was diagnosed with tackacardia. Actually lots of people would have this but I had sharp pains going up and down my left arm, I'd pass out, chest pains and shortness of breath. I also miscarried a baby in may of 2016 as well on top of it all. 

See I got a new job where I no longer qualify for state insurance. It's also very illegal not to have insurance. For whatever reason my insurance benefits didn't go through for my health care but they provide a free clinic for its employees. I thought I'd be okay because it only doesn't cover prescriptions or X-rays. 

Well I scheduled a physical for this past Friday. Everything was good till she checked my heart, about 5 billion times. My heart rate was 150 just sitting on her table and it made almost a chugging sound as if it were skipping a beat. My heart is about as healthy as a 400 pound, 40 year old man. 

Also, I didn't have insurance when I miscarriade and went to planned parent hood so double checked on my uterus and stuff, well low and behold when I miscarried the only thing that came out was the whom. I mean I wasn't far along at all, in fact I had no idea I was even pregnant, but the baby basically became a growth and is attached inside me. 

SO not only was I told I need heart surgery, but also that my baby needed to come out in one doctor visit, but I again, didn't have insurance. 

I didn't tell my boyfriend until Sunday morning, we had a weekend get away and I didn't wanna ruin his weekend. 

He suggested we get married, I have mixed feelings as I love him to pieces but I just feel I'm being so selfish. We both have absolutely amazing jobs, he has great insurance, I do too, but can't reapply till October of 2017. I asked the doctor to see if either can wait till then, nope. My heart is kinda an emergency thing, well and babies. Any input? 😟😟

Feeling kinda crappy. Sorry it's long.