Missing my baby

I miss being pregnant so much. I miscarried right before thanksgiving and i keep seeing everyone announcing that they are pregnant and i cant help but hate them a little. I dont want to because i know they are just as excited about the pregnancy they are enjoying as much as my husband and I did but after loosing my baby at 9 weeks right before the holding makes this all so much harder. We want nothing more than to have a family and be parents especially for trying a little over a year. I don't understand why i keep blaming myself because my doctor said it's nothing i did and that our baby wasn't forming properly. I miss the waking up to pee every hour and the mom ears and the i want spaghetti at three am or babe wake up i want ice cream eventhough its 4 am. I wanted that baby so badly.