Af due in two days !!

So expected date of af is 4 th February. Finding this time a little hard. DH is also away. Feeling very low. I know it's stupid to feel so when I am not even out this cycle but still it's that tiny doubt in the heAd that it's not the month and what if something is wrong with me. I'll snap put of this stupid though I'm sure but thought I'll just share my temporary loss of sanity 😳😔