Good instincts or bad denial?

This is kinda long I'll try to make it short. Ok from 1/13-1/16 I took 6 tests all faint positive. 1/18 I started bleeding, a good bit but not super heavy but it was bright red and had some cramping. Next day had light bleeding followed by spotting. Figured I was having a chemical. A couple days later I went to the ER cause I was worried about ectopic b/c ovaries were hurting. They said everything was clear and I had a chemical. I accepted that but now i keep having a feeling that I'm still pregnant. I'm having some symptoms but nothing really obvious, I would be 7 wks. Have breast pain on and off, weird cramps,slight nausea on and off,more CM(I would be ovulating this week but I've had several days on and off of CM, normally I only have 1 day during ovulation). Also I'm still pretty bloated. I realize all these symptoms might not be anything but after my 1st MC, 6 yrs ago, I knew something wasn't right. I knew as soon as I started spotting. Idk why I feel different this time. I could take a test but I'm scared to. I know no one here can give me an answer I guess I just need to vent..