I'm so happy💕

So, long story short. My ex husband and I had lots of problems. We were constantly fighting didn't want to do anything career wise and just not happy at the time, we had gotten married when I was 16. I moved out onto my own we seperated and divorced in a year. I got into a new serious relationship. This guy had me head over heels and I was an idiot. My ex husband we still talked because of the fact we had 2 dogs, 2 cats, 2 turtles (those were our babies since we couldn't have any physically). Anyways, ex husband went off into the marines boot camp, and I missed him very much. I missed the old times, and realized that what we were fighting over rediculous things, and I missed how he was such a gentle man, kind, never made me feel like just an object like the guy in my new relationship had. So, 1 week that my ex husband had been shipped out to boot camp, I had sent him a letter stating that I was planning to breakup with current boyfriend and agree to get back together. Well... we ended up finding out that I was 3 weeks pregnant. Not only pregnant but my boyfriend at the time was upset, and said he didn't want it. I cried. Was devastated because now how was I going to explain this to my exhusband, we split up (boyfriend at the time also has a daughter of his own). I honestly was in a very bad place, i began self harming myself. I would ask myself why god would give me a child with someone who did not want responsibilities, when I had someone who that was his only wish. I hated life, I hated myself, I hated him. Later on, I found out I was a high risk pregnancy. I had to stop working completely. My exhusband was extremely sad, he himself didn't know how to feel, but him - he stepped up when he didn't have to. He pays my bills, pays my phone, car insurance, bought my daughter everything, and now we are deciding if we should just get back together. If we do, my life will be complete. With my little girl and the man that I truely love. I made a huge mistake moving out. And an even bigger one meeting my ex boyfriend. But I hope and pray to god that my exhusband and I can be together again. And this time with a little girl. Something we could never have. We tried so hard, so maybe this was our chance to a family.? I just know he makes me happy.