I wished that I actually stuck to this decision a while ago.

I made a post here a couple of months ago saying that I was dealing with this guy, but I don't really know where we even stand.

Well, I'll just give out some background to it.

The guy and I have known each for about 2 years (I'm currently a junior and he's a senior), and we began "talking" while I was a freshman. At first, everything seemed like it was going to be bright and that it could lead into a relationship. But then, he began acting odd towards me and really distant; this was also at the time where we both started getting sexual (thank god that I'm still a virgin). Every time that I'd confront him about it, it's always either he's going through stuff with family or something is occurring within his household. I found out that it wasn't even that, he was actually talking to sooo many people (including one of my good friends that I've known since elementary.. Both of us ended up cussing him out and putting him on blast), and also just telling all of my business.

Since then, I haven't really looked at how I view men the same and everything has been hectic between us since then. The guy and I would go on and off talking, but it'd end up the same every single time. Hell, one time he even told me that "he thought about asking me out" and told me that "we were semi dating" (Lmao that's not even a thing). But I'd find out that he'd either be in a full fledged relationship with plenty of girls and would talk trash about me.

He would continue to insist that he wasn't using me, but my god I'm not that stupid. I felt afraid confronting him about it because I felt that I'd look like I was "too sensitive" or overreacting, but I've realized that it's not the case.

So I decided to cut him off...the thing that I regret though is not going forward with this decision plenty of times, and actually staying committed to it.

Cos lately, he's just been acting very flaky and can barely even acknowledge me in public; everything has been just weird and I'm not going to keep acting oblivious to everything. So a couple of weeks ago, I sent him a message on FB confronting him about everything. I didn't wanna go forward with cutting him off just yet, but I kept seeing the same behavior.

After that, I just went forward with it; I deleted his number, messages, and unfollowed him from any social media that I had. Then all of the sudden at 12 am, he replies...literally 2 weeks later and he claimed that "he had a bunch of stuff going on".

*note, that he did have a falling out with a couple of friends I think. I don't know exactly what happened, but I heard he just lied about some stuff..which is understandable because he's literally a compulsive liar*

So I sent him this text just telling him that I'm not gonna keep dealing with his behavior, being used, and just the bullshit. So then, he's like "wow I don't know what to say and sorry you feel that way. It seems that you've already made up your mind so you gotta do what you gotta do".

At this point, I'm like "yeah that's probably the best decision at this point" and he's just like whatever..

I'm only kind of upset about myself, cos I could've done this a lot sooner and I don't know if he actually cared..he probably didn't anyway.

But like they say, everything is temporary so✌