Hate being pregnant!

Ok so i a billion percent have hated being pregnant! I didnt mind with my daughter, had 3 MCs and now with my rainbow baby I want to force her out of my womb. I am 36 weeks pregnant, am bipolar and am more than miserable. I want her to be ready and healthy but i also really just want to rip her out myself. I know how bad this sounds but I don't think i can handle it anymore... We have a C-section scheduled April 19th. I think i need her out sooner.