I want to, but I'm scared.

I'm 20 yo and still a v. It's getting to point where it is almost the only thing I think about. I feel weird that I sometimes think of my guy friends, but I don't want it to happen in real life. I'm not a social person and the only guys I know are my guy friends, and they're now starting their own relationships and dating, which makes it worse. I don't want to have a quick hookup with a guy I don't know. I end up feeling bad when I do things myself. I want it to be a good experience. I don't know what I should do. I've been feeling guilty because I'm trying to turn my life to God. I'm open to suggestions.❤&✌