Heartbroken and lonely.

I just recently left my bf. Of five years. I mean, we still talk. We still hope to be together in the future. It's just not working right now. He's in nv. I was there. But I moved back to de. And I'm so heartbroken. I haven't slept a night without crying yet. I don't know how to cope. I don't know how to live a normal life. I miss his touch. His warmth. His hugs. His kisses. His voice. Everything. Every single day I feel my heart ache a little more. It's not getting better. It's only getting worse. I just want to be with him. I can't fathom a life without him. I can't sleep Normally. I can't eat normally. I just don't know what to fucking do with myself anymore.